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Date:2008-09-29 00:01

I can't wait til my big bed comes...sigh

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Date:2008-09-20 12:27

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
my arm pits

2. What colour is your favorite hoodie?

3. Do you like coffee?
Not really makes me poop

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
good im doing this so I can avoid cleaning

6. What’s the last letter of your crush’s name?
I don't really wanna talk about it... I don't like the word crush it seems too middle school for the situation

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
I haven't been sleeping long enough to get to the dream stage of sleep

9. Could you eat your favourite food everyday for a month and not get sick of it?
I can and I have

10. What are you craving?
white castle burgers... it's what im always craving

11. Do you floss?
yeah most of the time

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
no unless im counting money I don't want to

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick it

18. Do you use smileys?

19. How many bedrooms are in your house?

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
not really

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
im not a big fan of chunky food in general

22. What’s the last song you had stuck in your head?
london bridge the fergie one, not the kiddy one

23. How many countries have you visited?
went to niagra falls on the Canada side but that's lame so I don't like to talk about it

24. Are your parents strict?

25. Would you go sky diving?
Yeah but i think someone would have to push me

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I'd take him to taco bell

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
do i look like the kinda person to have sparkly shit in my room

30. Do you rent movies.
yes kinda have to with no cable

31. Who sits in front of you in your math class?
the chick with the pony tail

35. Where are you going to be Saturday night?
prob at my house watching L word on the 42in tv... carmen is high def is worth staying in for

36. Brown or white eggs?
never really had a preference

37. Like rap music?

38. Ever taken a train?

39. Experienced the twin towers falling in New York?
watched it on tv

41. What day of the week is it?

40. What was your Lunch?
either hot pockets or left over wings from hooters

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
no clue

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
yeah that was a crazy ass movie

47. So, how about them Yankees?
that's the phrase i use when things get awkward

51. Is your hair curly?
if i had enough of it, yes it would be

52. Last time you cried?
hmm good question

53. Ever walked into a wall?
if you answer no to this your lying

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
boxers... but they dont have the same kinda anymore and that makes me very sad

56. Favorite season?

61. The next person you’ll hold hands with?
probably my niece

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?

63. Have you ever drank alcohol straight from the bottle?
is there another way to do it

64. Do you think you’re old?
getting there... couple months ill be half way to 50 that depresses me

65. Are you afraid of the dark?

66. Do you like your life right now?
it's not too bad

67. When’s the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
no clue

68. Do you knock on wood?
not usually

69. Do you have good vision?

70. Can you hula hoop?
haha no

71. Where are your parents?
camping at the moment i think

72. Have you ever kissed in an elevator?
indeed i have

73. What is the next CD you will buy?
no clue

74. What brands are you wearing?
i have on MU shorts and a fruit of the loom t shirt

76. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yeah people take advantage of short people

77. Can you handle the truth?
generally yea

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
my "sober up special" from sheetz... it's a ham sandwich

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
i avoid it, don't like talking on the phone

80. Are you in a complicated relationship?
im in complicated situations, if there were relationships involved it would not be nearly as complicated

81. Do you hate more than 3 people?
I don't think I do

82. Have you ever tripped someone?
in second grade it was a good one too... he went flying and I went to the principal

86. Do you use chap stick?

87. Are you too forgiving?
depends on what is being forgiven

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
probably but i dunno

89. Do you own a gun?
quite a few actually and I bet im a better shot than Palin

90. Have you made a prank phone call?
no phones scare me

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
white castle

92. Do you like your hair?
no i wish i wasn't in the army so I could have a mohawk or shave it

93. Do you like yourself?
for the most part yeah

94. Are you closer to your mother or father?
my dad

95. Do you chat on MSN often?

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Date:2008-09-18 12:52

Why must everything always be so damn complicated. How do I get myself into these situations. You would think that I would have learned by now but apparently I haven't.

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Date:2008-08-29 23:51
Subject:it's been forever
Mood: peaceful

Nothing really important to say just rambling off some bullshit. First thing I have to say is that time changes everything. It changes you and it changes me. It is the one constant thing that can always be relied on. Time has done me good in someways and screwed me over in others. I'm very happy with where Im at right now. Especially for the burned bridges that have been repaired. +Friends really are the people who can see the good inside of you despite knowing the evil that resides there as well. Those are the ones you want to hold on to. Then there are the ones who can't let go. You can't move forward to new things while you're clinging to the past with every you got. There's a time when things need to accepted though painful and difficult only then can you see the forrest through the trees and understand that while things may not be the way you planned the way they turn out might be better than how you planned.

I need to know what happens when i die. Because it's strange that people live their lives for the purpose of their death. The thing that keeps most people in line and "moral" is the fact that they are scared to go to hell. What if hell doesn't exist or heaven. How would you feel after living your whole life being a good person and come to find out that it was all for nothing? I would demand do over. We don't get do overs though so I guess I'll just have to take my chanes and hope I don't spend the rest of my existance in the firey depths of hell. Life is a gift and I think the most should be made out of it. I'm done being scared and I'm done trying to keep the peace and make people happy. No one else is gonna give up their dreams for my benefit, why should I do the same for them. Is guilt a normal human emotion or is that something that was created by religion? I guess it depends on the form of guilt. There is the feeling of guilt for doing "bad" things and there is guilt more in the form of regret. Regret. When I was younger I was down for whatever and the only thing I wanted out of life was to regret nothing. There's not much I regret but regrets I do have are sometimes overwhelming. Things that appologies couldn't fix but time has seemed to help. I will never be okay with some of the things I've done but I'm glad that people can forgive things, even though they will never be forgotten.

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Date:2006-07-16 16:03

I'm joining the Army I leave Aug 3rd for basic at Fort Lenard Wood in Missouri. I am going to be a concrete/ asphalt equip. op. I'm pave me some roads. Anybody who might be bored is more than welcome to send me some letters. HOOAH!

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Date:2006-04-09 19:43
Mood: sad


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Date:2006-02-27 23:00

okay just wanted to say thank you so much to everyone who gave me their two cents. But for any of you that know me well you know how indecisive I am and so I decdided to go with a name that wasn't even on the list. My name is Hunter Ryan. Since everyone seems to like ryan the most I figured that would make for a good middle name. BTW chantelle, i just might have to take you up on that offer :D

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Date:2006-02-23 23:53

hey I know it's been a while and all that jazz but for once i actually have some pretty exciting things to update about.

I got a new job! I am an optician for Premier eyecare group. The jobs a little weird but I'm making some crazy money so I'm happy.

The other big thing is that I started therapy to become FTM. So I am very excited about that. After years of talking about it I'm actually doing it.



Okay so now that I am becoming FTM I need a male name. Trouble is I can't decide so please cast a vote or gimme a new suggestion. The choices are:







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Date:2006-01-11 18:06
Mood: confused

The most perfect thing in this world is a Sheetz burger custom made just for me. yum.

I am have a "mid-life" crisis and i need people with more common sense than I to help me sort through some things. Any volunteers? Well here we go. I learned today that I passed my exam so I am now certified optician. Which I should be really excited about cause i studied my ass off for that test. But I'm not cause that means that I have to be an optician. I don't wanna be an optician cause i have to dress up and be really girls and do my hair all nice and wear business suits. I know i should just suck it up and do it cause the money itsn't half bad but I want a dirty/outside job. I wasn't made to work in an office type setting. Some of you might not know this about me ( maybe you do) but I really want a sex change. Which is a whole other set of issues but I dunno how a professional job like that would deal with me being trans. I also don't know if it's appropriate for a female to wear pants and a tie to work in a setting like that. What I really wanna do is be a truck driver and I know that doesn't sound very ambious of me but I really think I would be happy doing that. And pretty much the one question that would answer all the other questions I have is : Is it okay to put your own happiness above the happiness of your family? I am one confused individual so any thoughts on this would be greatly apprecited.

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Date:2006-01-11 17:58
Subject:fill this out and you'll get a kiss

1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening to/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. How did you find/meet me?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:
4. A food:

1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like.

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Date:2005-12-28 21:42

1. initials: AEH
2. name someone with the same birthday as you: Elvis
3. where was your first kiss? um in my bedroom
4. for or against same sex marriages? For
5. are you homophobic? Nope
6. are you bisexual? nope
7. do you believe in God? oh jeez i don't know... if ya really care i'll be more than happy to tell you all my thoughts on god
8. how many US states have you been to? i'm gonna say prob about 35 or more
9. how many of the US states have you lived in? PA KS
10. have you ever lived outside the US? Nope
11. name something you like physically about yourself: my eyes
12. name something non physical you like about yourself: My logic and reasoning
13. where do you want to go to college? I don't think i really do
14. what is your dream car? one that works the way it should
15. if you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? New Zealand
16. have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone? um i don't think so
17. how many concerts have you gone to? alanis ( twice), melissa ferrick ( twice) sheryl crow, michelle branch, hootie and the blowfish, monkey bus
18. do you download music? i did when i had high speed
19. how many illegal things have you done? i dunno 7
20. where would you want to go on a first date? for a walk it's a good way to get to know someone
21. describe your perfect date: dinner and then chillin in a park and discussing things from football scores to politics to what is silly puddy made out off
22. has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yep
23. ever been kissed under fireworks? yea
24. have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time? nope never did that i'm aone woman man
25. do you like president bush? HELL NO
26. have you ever bungee jumped? no but i think i'd try it
27. have you ever white-water rafted? eyah twice
28. have you ever crashed a car? yes.. i'm so pissed off
29. has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you? yup
30. have you met a real redneck? met one.. shit i am one... that's why i live in Perry County
31. are you interested in anyone right now? very
32. what song are you listening to right now? no music just me
33. what is your current favorite song? Good Ride Cowboy- Garth Brooks
34. what was the last movie you watched? hmmm Polar Express
35. who was the last person you said you loved? Jeri
36. where was the last place you went besides your house? Work
37. have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property? nah
38. have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? Yup
39. have you ever sang in front of a large number of people? nope
40. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes
41. what really turns you on? sense of humor, leather, lube, etc
42. what do you usually order from starbucks? iced chai
43. what is your biggest mistake? dropping out of KU
44. have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? yup
45. say something totally random about you: my dick is too big for my body ( just checking if your actually reading this :D )
46. do you have an i-pod? nope
47. has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? never... except i think someone compared me to Chris Katan one time
48. do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? sure sometimes
49. do you have braces? nope
50. are you comfortable with your height? i wish i was a little bit taller wish i was... sing with me :D
51. do you speak any other languages besides English? nope
52. have you ever been to a tanning salon? yes... no comments
53. what magazines do you read? Maxim
54. do you think these surveys are stupid? every once in awhile they are cool
55. do you have a hidden talent? not really if i find a talent i like to show it off
56. have you gone farther than kissing? um yes
57. have you ever ridden in a limo? Once
58. has anyone you were really close with, passed away? no
59. do you watch mtv? nah
60. whats something that really annoys you? Ignorant people
61. whats something you really like? learning stuff
62. do you like michael Jackson? i like the old MJ the new one freaks me out
63. can you dance? not at all
64. have you ever surfed? shit i can't even swim
65. do you know how to pump gas? wtf have people not mastered this?
66. do you drive? yes yes i do
67. whats the latest you have ever stayed up? um 36 hours and then totalled my car
68. have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? yes read above
69. were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency? Nah
70. have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? Yup
71. did you do it? Yup
72. do you actually read these when other people fill them out? sometimes i do

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Date:2005-12-28 21:16

i never realized how gosh darn funny those crazy amish folk could be.... hilarious

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Date:2005-12-22 22:10
Mood: contemplative

A customer came into where I work today and touched on the heated Merry Christmas vs Happy Holidays debate. His thoughts where that if people didn't like they should "go back to where they came from". He also said that the US is a Christian nation. While we are predominantly Christian we are a religious freedom nation first and foremost. As far as the other comment he made, maybe he should go back to where he came from. One question to the Christians of this Christian nation, How does it feel? How does it feel to have people disreguard your beliefs like you have done to so many people through out history. I'm sure the Native Americans were wishing you would have gone back to where you came from before you killed most and converted the rest of them. Just becasue you're the majority doesn't mean you're right. Remember, there was a time when everyone thought the world was flat. Look at how that turned out.

I know this makes me sound like I am hostile towards Christians, I'm really not. I'm hostile towards people who have no tolerence for people other than what they deem to be "right". Why are people offended by happy holidays, it's an all purposes greeting and i think it's a damn good idea.

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Date:2005-12-20 22:50

I've been asking for the same thing for christmas for years now and do ya think my christmas wish would come true no... even since i was like 4 I've been asking to be a boy for christmas and even now if i could have one thing that would be the one thing i would ask for. Merry Christmas Ya'll!

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Date:2005-11-29 22:34

The rumours are true.. FRUIT CAKE IS NASTY

I was on a mission to find fruit cake and eat it cause i never have and i was convinced that I was going to be the one person who absolutly loved fuit cake and couldnt' get enough of it. Well I was wrong and it was gross and if anyone knows exactly what those gummy chunks of "fruit" are please, share your wisdom.

I believe that is all for now. Well a brief life update:

Living at home now, my beagle is retarded, Rent is awesome, my room leaks and I have a pimp den, I still love jeri after 11 months and I'm still poor. There ya go didn't miss much.

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Date:2005-10-25 07:45

You fit in with:

Your ideals mostly resemble those of an Atheist. You have very little faith and you are very focused on intellectual endeavors. You value objective proof over intuition or subjective thoughts. You enjoy talking about ideas and tend to have a lot of in depth conversations with people.

60% scientific.
100% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

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Date:2005-10-13 07:09
Subject:Annie's needs/wants/likes.... since all the cool kids are doiong it


1. Annie needs to be the only pet, as she. sometimes gets aggressive
2. Annie needs someone who is willing to put some training in, they will be quickly
rewarded as Annie is sensitive and quick to learn
3. Annie needs to be rescued by the armed forces (displaying male power)
4. Annie needs to pay for that airplane ticket, along with her other flight to come
to the Mayo Clinic for testing earlier this summer
5. Annie needs a resurrection from the psychological tomb of despair and anger
thrust upon her
6. Annie needs to see the sewage in the streets
7. Annie needs to stop everything and consult with her Heavenly Father
8. Her mother also starts stressing that Annie needs to grow into a lady. She sends
Annie to a woman who will teach her manners
9. Annie needs some special attention. Her stomach hurts and her ass needs stretching.
10. Annie needs a Woody

1. Annie wants a pet and has five dollars to spend on one
2. Annie wants her
friends to play, but they're messy from making spaghetti and meatballs.
3. To his horror Miss Annie wants Vernon to pay for the tutoring by helping the "Crazy
Lady" with the retarded kid in their neighborhood
4. Annie wants to smoke marijuana before sex
5.When Annie wants to move to California to be a star their relationship is destroyed
6. At one point, Jane and Elizabeth are concerned that Annie wants to straighten
her hair.
7.Aunt Annie wants you to be successful with her crafts
8.Annie wants us to dance and be happy
9.Annie" wants to get married to a sweet-talking man, who just wants to
get his hands on her money.
10.Annie wants to hear you say: “MY NAME IS JANE DOE AND I AM

1.Things Annie Likes. Bananas! Stinky dog treats; Having her belly rubbed
2.Annie likes to pass on the "secret of life" that she found written on a computer
terminal bearing a picture of Koko the gorilla
3.Annie likes the idea of Columbus being in chains
4.Annie likes to float in pools face down as if she's dead
5.Annie likes to bite
6. Annie likes the deranged person
7.Annie likes to dig, chew, and bite, and to roll in the bushes like a pig
8.Sure, Annie likes The Lion King — but she treasures Annie and the White Pony
9.Annie likes his soaps
10.Annie likes the toothed monkey very much

well that was fun. I encourage everyone to try it go to google and type " your name needs" and see what you need hehehe

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Date:2005-09-28 16:57

<td align="center">You will be famous for eating the most hot dogs at Nathan’s Famous hot dog eating competition

You love life and enjoy doing what you feel like whenever. You are a free spirit and are not tied down by any social conventions.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

<td align="center">You have a sexual hidden talent

You have a sexual hidden talent. You might not look it but you are a dynamo in bed. Most of your lovers think that it is from years of practice, but really, you were just born with it.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

These are so amazingly true it's friggin scary!

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Date:2005-09-27 22:22

It has occured to me that my life is too damn serious. Reading over my last few posts with the exception of the puppy one, they all stone cold serious and I'm done. It's time to feel liberated!

In an attempt to feed myself I opened a box of mac and cheese only to discover I have no milk :( Any thought on a substitute? I heard from a drunk girl once that's it's pretty damn good with vanilla soy milk. But who the hell has that?!?!

I like workin with my dad. He's actually a really funny guy. At least I think so. And when I spend so much time around him I understand why I am the way I am.

Why are women so weird about sex.... If you want it all the time then your a horn dog and youre just with them for the sex. If you don't then they feel shitty cause they think that you don't find them attractive and what not. Please for the love of God tell me where is the happy medium. I swear women will be the destruction of me.

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Date:2005-09-24 18:30

I'm really sad.... I don't want things to change.

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